IS the grass greener?

I have ALWAYS been one of those annoying people who wonder if the grass is greener, and I mean I always do this. Whenever I buy something or go somewhere I wonder how life would be if I did things differently. Of course these thoughts would plague me as I attempt to focus and study for midterms :(

I need some spice in my life! Honestly things have gotten soooo very mundane and I'm suffering. I like to have a schedule, but things are so boring right now. I need some new people or new conversation, something, because I'm SO BORED! I thrive off of good conversation and maybe that's what is missing from my life. Lately all of my conversations have been about school, tests internships....all of the regular things that make up the day. I always wonder if other people are having these marvelous conversations and am I somehow missing out.

I don't know why I always feel alone or isolated. Even though I like my personal space, I really am a very social creature. I like having people around to laugh with or even do random things with. This year I became friends with a lot of great friends, they really have changed my perspective of college and especially Hampton.

But even with all of that.....I still wonder. What if I had gone to a different school, what if I would have transferred when I wanted to. Would I have all of the relationships I thought I would???? I hate this part of my personality, making decisions is so hard for me and then I'm plagued with these annoying thoughts.

I am content with my life thus far, I just have to become more appreciative of the many many blessings I have. Which honestly (for me) is easier said than done.